Rebuilding the bridge, a delusion dissuaded

So here I am, nearly a full day later.

What started out as a prank phone call to DNR in order to promote my new radio show ("GM in Philly Show", which will be absolutely AMAZING by the way). By the end of the show, I ended up bearing my soul and pleading my old case of wanting to be friends with my favorite radio-show characters.

After a messy battle, and an AMAZING end to Derek and Romaine show on Friday night, I finally got to understand, COMPLETELY, what they had been saying from the very beginning when this all started. I got the explanation that "THEY ARE RADIO SHOW HOSTS!!" and as simple as that sounds, the concept was able to break the trance I had with them! These people are just made up characters on a show to keep us entertained for four hours at a time, they willingly admitted it (and I was FINALLY able to grasp what they were actually saying FOR REAL this time)!

Thank you DNR for helping me understand, and to the callers that night, I guarantee I was laughing just as hard as anyone else out there was, that is of course, after I got my head out of my ass!! haha

Ok, I'm indecisive,

So what?!?

I've gotten a LOT of criticism lately for my brash move in trying to cut the Derek and Romaine show from my life. It truly causes too much drama for all the parties involved (me, Derek AND Romaine, and the listening populous at large).

I don't really know what to say for myself. If anyone asked me before, I would have said I DO NOT have an addictive personality, but my behavior in the past three months would certainly have proved me wrong.

I'm just now coming around to the fact that I'm something of a flip-flopper, I go through emotional highs and lows with DNR and their show. Nobody would want to admit it (a certain missus I'll leave nameless out of respect, and a blithering idiot I'll also leave nameless for some offshoot of the same reason), but most of those who listens to and actively participate in the show, they may in fact have the same problem I have.

WAIT FOR IT!...

The main difference for the majority of those people and myself, is that they don't struggle with the EXTREMES of the love/hate that I do.

I don't excuse my poor behavior. My behavior toward Derek and Romaine throughout that time was sickly poor at best! For those who had gone and publicly ridiculed me for it however, perhaps they DO have that same love/hate of mine only in a misguided direction.

So I made a faux pas. Just in the sake of not downsizing the situation I've made many with this area of my life. Why was my social blunder blown so out of proportion though?

The hosts, who are truly the only ones I've done anything to openly offend, have made it crystal clear that they WERE NOT offended by my actions (both on-air, and (also I'm expressly grateful) off-air as well). Why would other people feel so passionately as to punish me for something in which they are not directly related? My only conclusion is that they actually DO struggle with their own insecurities, and see a piece of themselves in me. They attack it easily, to an obviously vulnerable target, successfully avoiding the guilt they feel for themselves.


Such shame on you!

I've finally spoken my peace on the matter, and with each entry becoming slightly more personal than the last, I think I may in fact HAVE to take this blog down, and start a diary for risk of this blog being seen as "unpalatable".

Ouchie! I had three fillings today, no fun!

Whew, what a busy week it's been. I've had so much "picking up" to do with the show, and have been so stressed out with work (and my 52+ odd hours a week, ugh) that I'm just dead-tired by now. Any of you who follow me on Facebook, would know that Tuesday through Thursday is my "easy time", haha!

Well it's Thursday again, and now it's back to the drudgery of work-life (hey, it's a living). You know looking back this is like an online journal of sorts, I've never been too good with keeping up with "a diary", but hey, it's a new day and I'm ready!

I hope the show kicks off well, deep down, I really do want it to take off and head for the stars. I'm wondering if I should consider having a link from the main site (GMinPhilly.com) navigate here. I think people who would read this, would have to have a vested interest in MY "goings on" so I'll plug it on my show, but I think I'll keep this as a more intimate side of GM, and let people find it themselves.

Well for those of you out there who ARE reading this, hope it was a good read, it sure is therapeutic for me though! haha

Take care!

Away from the show

This will be the blog to talk about things not pertaining to the show. The "GM in Philly show" (working title) is me focused on becoming a successful On-air personality. "Aside with GM" is exactly the opposite. Contrary to popular belief, I do not have all the time in the world, and to be honest this blog will only be updated in an intermittent way. If I feel there's something else to know away from what's on the show, it can be found here.

This page is dedicated solely to 'the random' of my life. Hopefully, you'll find it as enjoyable as I do!



See you around!